"I want to know you better then I know myself"

what an interesting perspective I have
Finally getting out of here
august first

I'm sitting in a room full of boxes, You never really know how much stuff you have until you really look
cant wait to decorate the new place
gotta stop spending money

I really can't wait to hear infected mushrooms new album

I don't know how to like make a move anymore
kinda cursed
I just wait for things to happen

ugh must go to bed, stupid packing to do
eight days

I'm losing touch
why
why
why
do I keep thinking of you

tool is playing august 5
I'm going
to toronto

I can't miss this

I wish I didn't have to come back..

aight so i decided im just going to buy a punky color that will go over this pink maybe do some bangz orange or red (using my left over hair dye)
but im stuck between colors
Im thinking buying a blue to go over this pink it will make a neat purple so
either lagoon or atlantic blue
then i thought well i just could go a super dark red
so then red wine is an option or rubine
but then i thought what about just buying a purple
like plum
but I don't think i would do that
so basically fuck i need to go to haridresers market ASAP

I really want to sell this game cube system, but if mom foudn out she would kill me
but we don't need it like the wii plays all the gamecube shit
I've gotten offers for it before

elfjal fuck it
anyways I'm making a list of things I need to like pay for and shit

-save up for laptop
-pay anna for the video camera
-tattoo on march 25? I'm thinking of having it ona different spot
like the nape of my neck
-rent to mom
-I need new spring shoes as well
-I need a new hoodie, either a band one or not I don't care

fuck I wish my taxes turned out
but turns out i had to be ninteen to get that extra 400$

why does age effect everything

I basically hate my life right now because
I'm pretty sure I'm in love with like my closest guy friend
and nothing is worse then that
I'm completely lost on what to do
or not do
and i just don't want to feel like this
basically
fuck my life

this is when things get stupid
when you start acting childish

Im really nervous today is my test day
and all i can think about is the stupid mistakes I've made in the past
and hope that they don't affect me now

I think I like _____ again
and it sucks because I can't find a way to get to be close to him again
like I want to be
without hurting someone else

FUCK
MY
LIFE

ahaha
over all I'm fine
just I hate the choices I have to make

Your not going to get any more chances
no one else did
so what makes you so special
nothing
that's what
so smarten up, pay attention!T

"you told me about no where and it sounds like a place I would like to go "

I was really disappointed by the lack of gift I got from graham
only because I thought he would clue in to little things
like Me wanting him to learn lives by modest mouse
or something
but no
I bought him a book and got my cute valentine in the coast this week
"your heart felt good
I'm super glad that someone so young could impress me like you did. Your doing everything right and i hope you keep it up because the truth be told, I couldn't be any happier when I'm around you -~falling fast"

SUPER CORNY
and I'm never like that


here the boring part of school
where I just want to skip and skip
but I can't
I cant keep this up Or I'll fuck up my plan
and I can't risk that anymore
fuck english provincal exam is actually scary thinking about
I hope I don't fuck up seriously

like I dont know what it is
I jsut can't do homework here

I might move out sooner then I thought

I have my tattoo this friday
and my other one on march 25

I want to go on a hot air balloon ride

It's been a while since I've posted because el jay keeps giving me lip and saying my posts are posting to the wrong date
which like wtf am i suppose to do

I'm growing out my hair from this point
no more dying it
here comes the gross brown then i'll see what color it is
and hopefully stick with it